Sunday, November 29, 2009

Thoughts

I am looking toward the future and wonder what it will hold for me. I am uncertain of where I will be in a year or what I will be doing. I know that there is a plan for me, just not sure when the plan will begin; I am ready for the journey and I am ready for the path that is ahead.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

????

Where is that path that was promised? Where are the kisses that would last? Where are the words of promises? Where did the pain in my heart come from? When did I allow the veil to fall? When did I grow into the person who I am and once turned from? Where is, when is, who is: who will fill in the heart and block the pain?

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Seeking Me

There are some who have this great sense of self, who seek new ways of being or reconstructing themselves; I have a strong sense of self. However, I feel that my life is a salmon swimming up stream, living to be what I think I should be in this vast existence of self. I pine for those who I have or had in my life to see me. I am seeking the me that I project, I seek that self confidence that is me, and show to those who see over or around me that I am worth that second look.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

In the Shadows

I find myself in the shadow. My life is passing by and I sit trying to move forward, but still stuck in the shadows. I reach for the light, but the light fades into the shadows of me. I want to see and feel the light, and to show that I am here. However, the shadows consume, they overwhelm, they are melding with the past, present, and future me. How long do I try to move from this forest of shadows, that are of people, things, and objects. What if the shadows are becoming me, or am I becoming the shadow.